This is a post I never wanted to write: It’s a post about relapse.
I’ve spent the last few weeks feeling so ashamed that, after months of intensive treatment in California, I’ve relapsed — badly.
Some of you may have read Sam’s blog post of my experience attempting to receive continued treatment at home. In it, he shares some of the more harrowing details of what happened to me in treatment. It feels heartbreaking that I’m in this dangerous place again, especially when I came back to New York with so much hope for the future.
But I’m not giving up.
I spent weeks in a partial hospitalization program (PHP) that crushed my spirit. But (more…)